The View From Here

Friday, November 30, 2007

Execute The Teacher - In The Name Of Islam

I was taking a break from the computer today since I have a ton of sewing and knitting to finish but I do have the TV on the news channel. I caught the tail end of a report describing riots in Sudan. Men brandishing knives, swords and sticks are rioting and demanding that British teacher Gillian Gibbons be executed for naming a teddy bear Muhammad.

There you go, Islam is the religion of love and peace boys and girls and they want to execute a teacher because her pupils named the teddy bear. Next will they demand that all the students be executed as well?

I can think of many reasons why Muslims don't like us (westerners) but there sure are a heck of a lot of reasons for us not to like them as well.

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Thursday, November 29, 2007

U.K. Teacher Jailed

Well the verdict is in, guilty as charged for inciting religious hatred. For letting the children in her class name a teddy bear Muhammad. Lucky woman though, she managed to avoid the 40 lashes and just has to spend 15 days in jail followed by immediate deportation, wow... It was a fuc--ng teddy bear!



What does that teach the children who named the bear?

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Health System Failure

I'm stealing this heading from this mornings paper because I can't think up a better one. The gist of the story is medical mistakes kill up to 24,000 Canadians annually. The figures are even higher for the United States. That's a heck of a lot of people that die from the mistakes that are documented. What about the undocumented deaths of elderly people that are just simply put down as "old age". Some of those people might not have died with proper treatment or correct diagnosis but because of age, didn't get it. Many elderly die from hospital pneumonia and C-difficile. These are unnecessary deaths in my view.

Of course I didn't need to know that today since I'm booking gallbladder surgery. This surgery is going to happen before Christmas since it's pretty urgent and will be done before the Heart Ablation surgery. Because of the arrythmia I'm a little nervous but have been assured that they will be able to control my heart beat and will keep me in hospital one to two days as a precaution. I sure hope the surgeon is a good one and all will be well.

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Sharia Law - Good Or Bad?

Judging what happens in far flung lands from the safety and security of living in Canada is always a bit dicey, but really...200 lashes for a young woman for being in a car with a man who is not a relative is a bit much. That's Sharia law in Saudi Arabia.

The main stream media now has the story and have been warned that writing critically about it would just make it worse for the young woman!

Meanwhile in Khartoum, Sudan a teacher is in jail on charges of allowing her young students to name a teddy bear Muhammad. It was buried in this mornings newspaper but by tonight it has made it to the TV news and main stream newspapers and there is a huge diplomatic storm brewing in Britain over this. If found guilty she faces 40 lashes and 6 months in jail. She is 54 years old, can anyone out there imagine receiving 40 lashes at that age? It has been suggested that a Sudanese official is using this to start another "incident" like the Danish cartoon episode. I wonder... why is okay to name their baby boys Muhammad but not a teddy bear? I mean really, my doctors name is Muhammad, what's the big deal?

Our Provincial Premier McGuinty was considering Sharia Law here in Ontario in the country of Canada. Good thing he changed his mind... Back to my knitting.

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Monday, November 26, 2007

Spreading The Word - A Saudi Atrocity

This came as an email to me this morning with the request to spread the word. I'm doing my part...

A very thoughtful and eloquent response to that pending Saudi atrocity.


The God of Abraham was a god of vengeance, a demanding God who asked
Abraham to sacrifice his son, Isaac- as a test of faith; but at the last
minute, God stayed Abraham's harsh hand, thus showing that he was also a
God of compassion and mercy.
Some people who profess to act in the name of the God of Abraham; and to
uphold the Abrahamic traditions, instead of staying the hand of the
harsh court that sentenced a woman to be flogged for allowing herself to
be gang-raped; has tripled her sentence to 200 lashes! This was the
recent decision of the Supreme Court of the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia
meted out to a young woman of nineteen/twenty.

A more barbaric act, in modern times, done in the name of my God, is
hard to imagine. It trumps the decision of the Sharia Court of Northern
Nigeria, three years ago, when they condemned a divorced woman, who had
a child, to be stoned to death. Italy offered asylum to that woman.

Who will rescue this young woman from the dastardly acts of a woman
hating cult that is the Supreme Court of Saudi Arabia? Would the
country's oil, for which the west is drooling, overshadow this barbaric
act of injustice?

What would two hundred lashes across her back and buttocks do to the
body of a young woman? Each lash, I hear them in the memory of my slave
ancestors' screams, tears out the flesh, sometimes ripping it into
shreds. Scars open on the buttocks through which bloody white fat can be
seen. Individual drops if blood mingle and course down, mixed with sweat
and tears, and the lashes go on, an on, until the back is reduced to
hamburger meat, the pale parts of unlacerated skin looking strangely
untouched. It is hard to imagine that there is sufficient back space on
a nineteen year old woman for two hundred lashes to fit neatly across
her skin, so she will be getting lash upon lash, whip tearing already
torn flesh, pulpifying it into something like a carapace that she will
carry on her back for the rest of her life, to match the tearing and
pain of the gang-rape, and the metal scars that left. She will be
branded for life as unsuitable as marriage material, branded by the very
people who profess to the world that they want to protect her purity.
Hogwash. They want to act as the Gods of Vengeance because she dared to
appeal, dared to have the case reported in the papers, dared to go
outside her house, dared to be with a young man in a car, who was not a
relative. Daring has to be whipped out of her forever, and symbolically
through her, out of all other women who do not toe the line. Reducing
her back to hamburgered human flesh has to terrify all other young women
to stay in line, a line set by a series of old men who feel themselves
having to retreat in the face of modern young people.The fates of
Islamic women all over the Middle East, North Africa, Pakistan, India,
the Caribbean, Malaysia and Indonesia could be shaped by that of this
young woman.

The whipping of humans has long been a barbaric custom practiced by
people trying to hold on to power, upon those they wish to terrify. It
was used during slavery in the Americas from the USA to Brazil, and in
the Caribbean. It was used in India, in Burma, Africa and in the
metropolitan countries that gave us the slave states of the third world.

Recently, we saw another Islamic country, Pakistan, publicly whipping
lawyers dressed in business suits, who dared to question the
over-reaching military powers of its dictator president and commander in
chief.That this has survived in Saudi Arabia, India, Pakistan and
Singapore as forms of legal punishment, in state and schools, attest to
its capacity to terrify little people into submission.

Would it not be kinder to shoot her, one bullet to the head, and be
done?

200 lashes is torture; and had she been foreign-born and living in
Saudi Arabia, the international community would have been more outraged
than we seem to be over this. Now we are outraged, but are we thinking;
well Saudi barbarism on Saudi citizens is less barbaric than renditions
to allegedly get information about terrorism? This sentence is an act of
terrorism against a young woman, and through her, against all women.

Saudi Arabia has put itself into the category of Barbaric State where
old men mutilate young women for vengeance, and to create fear. It is
not the picture of Saudi Arabia that I want to remember from my visit
there three years ago.

In planning the visit, sponsored by the Saudi Armco Company of Houston,
and Dhahran; I and other educators, had asked to look at the status of
women in The Kingdom. We toured woman's colleges, girls' high schools,
hospitals, aspects of the oil production, and both elementary and middle
schools. Everywhere we were met with enthusiasm. We met young female
doctors from Britain as well as Saudi, petroleum engineers, college
professors, museum directors, and princesses of the realm who were
businesswomen. We were interviewed by newspapers and television persons,
and published in the papers. We had a grand lunch in Jeddah sponsored by
the Chamber of Commerce, where we sat and talked with Saudi women.We had
dinner in Riyadh with eminent persons. I felt it was a major opening for
women, and there was hope. One of the princes of the Royal family even
spoke of changes that allowed women to work in offices with men.
The generosity and warm heartedness, of all the people we met, touched
us al ll very deeply. We saw veiled women of every sort, including those
who eyes were the only things visible.
We went to places where only men worked, like Shayba, and asked
questions of them in meetings, like equals. Some female Saudi Aramco
employees accompanied us on these trips. We felt that we were helping to
move the society forward just a little bit..

Everywhere we went, people were glad that we came, as foreigners were
leaving Saudi Arabia in droves after the bombing near Dhahran, at the
Oasis complex, a couple of days before our visit.

As a free woman of African heritage, it was my right and privilege to
speak with all the men I met, including the President and CEO of Saudi
Aramco, his Vice President, Prince Turki of the Ministry of Mines, and a
number of men in high places, One prince, in our meeting with him, was
quite concerned about the children of privilege, including his own, not
learning the value of work, so his kids had to help with household
chores, although they had many servants. Their allowances were tied to
helping around the house.

We came away positively impressed that this ancient country, but new
kingdom, has a vision for its future including educating and advancement
of women.

All of these memories, the picture files, the souvenirs, the visit of
the poet Ni'mah Nawwab to my school on Feb. 1, 2005, have taken on a
taint. Its the taint of double bloodshed. The bloodshed of gang-rape
mixed with the blood of 200 lashes on the back of a young woman not yet
twenty.

In my mend's eye, the scars crisscrossing her back would be like
graffiti on the pristine walls of a mosque, temple or cathedral, put
there by vandals who had already stolen the sacred treasures from inside
the holy place, but wanted to show off their contempt for the place. In
this case the burglars are the rapists and the vandals spraying graffiti
are the judges of the Supreme Court of Saudi Arabia.

A woman's body, the sacred housing of her soul, should not be desecrated
by the same courts that proclaim to the world that the head of their
country is the guardian of the Holy Places of Islam. Yet this is what
the court has done in sentencing that her back be ripped to shreds, to
be used to continue to terrify all women into subjection.

I, who support the idea of dialogue between the People of the Book as
set forth in A Common Word, scream in anger and agony, that we cannot
make common dialogue when a symbolic Mary, The Mother of Christ; is
given 200 lashes as punishment for a crime committed against her person.

I ask all who read this to forward it to Christians, Jews and Muslims
everywhere, as well as the other faiths committed to work for a kinder
more just world for all of God's children.



Linda E. Edwards
Houston, Texas
Educator and Writer
Supporter of the rights of women to be human beings.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Under The Full Moon - I Turn Into Martha Stewart

I can't help it actually, it's all that nervous energy.

So this is what I did last night.


So my sweetie could eat this today.

Didn't turn out half bad either I have to say. Wondering why I'm full of nervous energy? I'm waiting to see a surgeon this week about having my gallbladder out. That's the latest news from all the tests, I'm full of gallstones. No wonder I have been having all this pain. Now the wait is on to see what happens first, the heart ablation surgery or the gallbladder surgery. Soon the mystery will be solved. Meanwhile, Happy Sunday.

Ukrainian Genocide - 75 Years Ago

"Holodomor", was it just a famine or was it Joseph Stalin's way to purge Ukraine? In 1932 the Kremlin confiscated all the grain and food they could find in Ukrainian villages thereby condemning them to certain death from starvation. It has been estimated that up to 10 million Ukraines died in one year.


Here are some links to the story.
Was It Genocide
Ukraine Remembered
Ukrainian Genocide

In December of 2005, Russian President Putin threatened to cut off gas supplies to the Ukraine during a price dispute, or was it because the country had elected a pro western government? Germany is the largest consumer of Russian energy in Europe. Is Germany leaving itself open to the same threats in future.

In January 2007 Russia again threatened to cut off oil supplies to Poland, Germany and Ukraine. Our collective memories about the power of Russia needs to be jogged from time to time. This is a man who brooks no opposition to his steel fisted rule. Anyone who tries to oppose gets thrown in jail or worse, assassinated.

Just remember Joseph Stalin. The world should acknowledge that indeed, it was genocide.

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Friday, November 23, 2007

Friday Night Boredom - Time For A Quiz

Thanks Christina G. for sending the link to this Quiz. Now I just have to find the E in my name...





You're Anne of Green Gables!

by L.M. Montgomery

Bright, chipper, vivid, but with the emotional fortitude of cottage
cheese, you make quite an impression on everyone you meet. You're impulsive, rash,
honest, and probably don't have a great relationship with your parents. People hurt
your feelings constantly, but your brazen honestly doesn't exactly treat others with
kid gloves. Ultimately, though, you win the hearts and minds of everyone that matters.
You spell your name with an E and you want everyone to know about it.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

For My American Friends


Wishing you all a joyful day with family and friends, and of course a great turkey dinner.



Rositta

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

I'm A Collector

I love and collect a couple of things besides wool. I love milk glass and I also love Lustre Ware and they couldn't be more different. This was my current collection of milk glass.




A couple of days ago I went to my local Value Village, a reasonable thrift shop for buying books. Since I'm waiting on a library list for the current bestsellers I've run out of reading material. As is my wont my eye travels quickly over the glass and plate area of the store and a piece of milk glass caught my eye. Of course once I started looking I realized there was more. So I grabbed it all.




I got six pieces for about 7 bucks, a real bargain in my mind. The little vase below is my real favourite of this haul.





















I really like the Lustre Ware as well and have a lot more of it. I own some bowls, casserole dishes, cups and saucers and various little bowls.

I also like to hang it on the walls, mostly because I've run out of cupboard space in the kitchen. I have the tiniest kitchen known to man with a serious lack of cabinets. Not much I can do about it though unless I buy a bigger house. That's not on the agenda.





I consider myself lucky to have found those pieces but I'm sure my offspring will hate me someday when he has to clear out my house, tough...these pieces make me smile and we all need that...

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Monday, November 19, 2007

What I Did Today - I Saw My Achy Breaky Heart!

Well not completely broken, just malfunctioning slightly.


I had an Echocardiogram done of my heart. That's not my heart above but you get the idea. It was pretty amazing lying on the table and watching and listening, yup there are sound effects, as the blood flows in and out. Sound like slurping actually and I started to laugh much to the technicians annoyance.

Oh well, I was annoyed too. I was lying on a gurney in a cold room wearing a paper gown that had already ripped under the armpits as I was putting it on. Didn't really matter though I was just grateful I didn't have a long wait (this is the land of long waiting lists) to have this test and I found the technology amazing. Now I can imagine how women feel when they have this tests when pregnant and can see their embryo. Pretty darn cool.

This test was done in preparation for the Heart Ablation surgery I will be having soon, depending on the waiting lists. My cardiologist though is pushing for sooner rather than later since there is no medication that will slow down and regulate my heart rate that I can tolerate. He has no other drugs to offer so this is the only solution for me. Am I scared, absolutely. I hate needles and I understand they thread a needle/wire through a vein in my leg to my heart while I'm AWAKE, I think their frickin nuts.

Anyway, while I have some time to obsess about this I've started knitting again so all those interested in my projects can view them on my knitting blog...

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Elderly Women Less Likely To Receive Care

I have been following this story for the last couple of days because of my own experiences with the health care system. It seems that my feelings way back in May were correct, when I thought that the care my mother received in hospital was substandard. Now I also have to worry about what kind of care I will receive with my hearth issues, I'm over 50.

A study by Sunnybrook Health and Sciences Centre in Toronto and shows the same thing, I was right.

This difference was most pronounced among women over age 50, who were 32% less likely than men to be admitted to intensive care units. They were also 9% less likely than men to receive mechanical ventilation to assist breathing and 20% less likely to receive pulmonary artery catheters to monitor failing hearts. They were also more likely to die.

Anyone how read my posts back in April and May will know of my almost daily battle with doctors and hospital administrators. I was threatened with eviction on a few ocasions for being "too intense". This study will not bring my mother back but it is a warning to all of us women over the age of fifty with possible health problems. What does it say about our society when elderly women are not valued any more?


Dr. Bierman and Dr. Baxter say the findings are just the latest evidence of gender-related differences in Canada's health care. Other studies have found women are not as likely as men to be admitted to hospital after arriving at emergency departments with heart problems, are less likely than men to receive implantable cardiac defibrillators, and are at increased risk of receiving potentially inappropriate medications.

When I questioned medications I was made to feel stupid, when I wondered why it would take four weeks to get a pacemaker even though her heart kept stopping, I was ignored and when I asked to have her diapers changed more frequently I was told of "staff shortages" and I was expecting too much. In the end, something as preventable as a Urinary Tract Infection could have been too much for her system and put her into a coma.

I was told to "let her go" and she's a "frail elderly woman". They catch you off guard, they play on your emotions not to let your "loved one suffer" when really there might have been a chance. Mechanical ventilation was discouraged. Would it have helped, I don't know, but I do know that I feel guilty for having been caught off guard and not insisting. And here's the kicker, I should not have been put in that position in the first place. It was incumbent on the hospital to offer the best care, I mean after all this is Canada and we pride ourselves on our excellent "health care system".

I'm not sure that writing about it has any effect, but I do know that I will continue to advocate for better health care and I suggest anyone who has an interest in ensuring we all receive proper care when our time comes, do the same.

The researchers looked at the gender, age and admission to ICU, use of mechanical ventilation, kidney dialysis or pulmonary artery catheter, length of stay in ICU and hospital, and death in ICU, in hospital and one year after discharge.

Far fewer women were admitted to ICU -- 39.9% women, and 60.1% men. This difference was most pronounced among women over the age of 50, who were 32% less likely than men to be admitted to ICU.

Among men and women with comparable medical conditions, the older women were nine per cent less likely than men to receive mechanical ventilation to aid breathing and 20% less likely to receive pulmonary artery catheterization, which entails threading a catheter through the chambers of the heart.

My mother was not admitted to an ICU unit at all, she was kept in a Geriatric Unit! This is an issue that can not be allowed to go away, we owe it to ourselves, our elderly mothers and the future of our daughters to ensure women are treated better in our hospitals. Read the whole article, it's an eye opener...

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Conan O'Brien - Cartoon Hero?

I wasn't going to do any more blogging tonight but while I was surfing around I found this and it is really funny.

A Conan cartoon as America's number one crime fighter? I think he got a little lost and ended up in Canada instead of Manhattan.

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Rick Mercer Video

Lisa at Stink Eye and Tube Steak has posted an amazingly funny Rick Mercer video clip on her site. Go visit and have a look, it is hilarious.

I don't think Americans know who he is but he is mother CBC's premier comic and really quite funny. Thanks Lisa.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Mykonos The Last Stop

A gorgeous island known as a jet set playground, it is incredibly popular with tourists. It is a very expensive island in comparison with the others we visited. There is no bargaining at all, the shopkeepers are just not interested. They actually seemed kind of bored and didn't really care if we bought or not. As a result I didn't bother buying much. I much preferred Kusadasi for shoping and bargaining, it was much more fun.

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Most buildings are sugar white and absolutely wonderful and most have very colorful doors. I love colorful doors.

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There are more door pictures in Flick but this one is my favourite. I wonder if I can do that to my front door? Will Steve let me...I wonder, what will the neighbours think?

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Beautiful sand beaches make this an ideal place for a vacation. Nope, that's not the our ship in the background. We were surrounded by these behemoths and our little Blue Monarch looked like a toy.

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Lots of little alleyways make it easy to get lost and we did, a few times.

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Winding cobblestone streets hide hotels and shops. Wonderful to explore though and more time was needed than we had.

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Steve and Carla pondering a purchase. Steve helped with the bargaining.

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We travelled a total of 1,335.3 nautical miles, and stopped at 7 ports in 7 days. Would I do it again, yup, as Carrie from Sex in the City used to say, "in a New York minute"...

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Heraklion (Crete) From The Greek Cruise

Actually Crete came before Santorini I was a little confused. I think the reason I missed writing about it was because we really didn't spent much time there . We arrived at 8 am and left again at 11:30 am, not really a lot of time to explore.

A Little Walkabout

Day 5 Crete Walkabout (10)

Walls of the old town.

Day 5 Crete Walkabout (1)

Because I am "directionally challenged" (I get lost), here is the map with the order as follows.

map-cruise-7day

I have no pictures from Patmos because we didn't get off the ship. It was another one of those early morning arrivals, something like 7 am and leaving at 10:30 am to head towards Mykonos. I was running out of energy and found two islands a day a bit much.

Mykonos is next and the last stop.

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Elliotte Rositta Anne


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Originally uploaded by TeddyBoy
I'm a pretty shameless grandmother, I just have to show her off. I'm told she smiles like that most of the time and she definitely has her Daddy's cheeks. It's so hard that I can't see her all the time, hold her and hug her. They just live so far away.

I have some new knitting projects in mind for her, I just need to get going.

Apartheid - Coming To Toronto?

For a country that considers itself multi cultural and a city that prides itself on diversity, entertaining the idea of separate schools for black children is wrong, wrong and just plain stupid, in my view.

Here are some links to this story that has been debated by parents and interested parties over two separate days. Make up your own mind.

Read here, here and here.

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Monday, November 12, 2007

What Should I Be When I Grow Up?

This one is from Jen, thank you. I always knew that. Now it's your turn. You can always tell when I'm trying to waste time, not in the mood for knitting, not in the mood for serious writing, just wasting time.

You Should Be a Politician

Confident, assertive, and dedicated - you know what you want in life and how to get it.
Stubborn and opinionated, you can stand your ground... even if it's unpopular.
And while you have strong views, you never overwhelm people with your opinions.
A true charmer, you subtly influence people into seeing things your way.

You do best when you:

- Work according to your own rules
- Can change the world with what you do

You would also be a good lawyer or talk show host.


Maybe in my next life...

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

6 Month Anniversary - A Sad One

On May 12th of this year my Mom passed away.

My Mom

I miss her daily and terribly. She was an integral part of our daily lives since she moved in with us three years before. This is one of my favourite photos of her and was taken on my birthday the March before her death.

Mom and Dad emigrated to Canada in 1956 at the behest of her sister. It was probably the biggest mistake of their lives. Had they stayed in Germany their lives would have been much better and much easier. They left because my grandmother made my mother's life hell and no one knew at that time that my grandmother was in the early stages of dementia. Because my Mom was not from Wiesbaden but had come from the Baltics to marry my dad, she was a natural target. The fact that we lived in one room in their house didn't make it any easier.

Little did my parents know that Canada would be worse, much much worse. Both my parents had respectable careers in Germany, my father a railway track engineer and my mother a bookbinder, both lost professions now, but in those days well paying and respected, in Germany at any rate. Here in Canada they were reduced to washing floors in factories and cleaning other peoples houses. Neither of them complained though and did what they could to put food on the table and a roof over our heads. Any hope of better employments was quickly dispelled by signs like "foreigners need not apply".

Any hope of having more children were lost in the daily struggle for survival and that's why I am an only child and why I was so close to both my parents. We were it, it was us against the world. When I left my first husband with a three year old in tow, it was my parents who sheltered me and my mother in particular who protected me from further abuse. Taking care of her in her later years was something I could do to repay her for her earlier care.

I know parents are supposed to do these things for their children, but the fact is not all of them do. I was lucky and I was doubly lucky to spend the last few years of her life with her.

Tomorrow will be a sad day for me and I will lay my flowers at her grave and try not to cry too much.

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Lest We Forget - November 11


IN FLANDERS FIELDS the poppies blow
Between the crosses row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

Lieutenant John , McCraeMD (1872-1918)

Canadian Army


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Saturday, November 10, 2007

It's November - Honest

When we came home from Greece a couple of weeks ago we had a major garden cleanup to do. This is what we found...

November Crop

And this is what I did with them...

Made This

For my friends 65th Birthday...She doesn't look a day over 50 does she?

For My Friend

Some more surprises from my garden yesterday.

November Surprise

Only those of you who live in Canada will know how weird this is.

November Honest

I have one more post to write about our Greek vacation. The island of Mykonos will be my final posting and it will come in the day or so. I have been kind of busy with doctor stuff this week and yesterday had another 14 hour migraine from which I'm trying to recover today.

Meanwhile the photos are already uploaded and viewable in Flickr for anyone who is interested.

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Thursday, November 08, 2007

The Doctor Is Forgiven

I went back to the Doctor today for some follow up stuff, mostly blood pressure and while I was in his office I had a really good look at him. He has aged along with me and it shocked me. I guess somewhere in my brain I thought he would always be young and would always be there for me.

Today I realized that this may not be true and it saddened me. I remember when his sons were born, and he still has those baby pictures on his desk but he also has pictures of grown young men graduating from University hanging on his wall. There was a time when he was not so rushed and we had time to chat a little.

Things have changed. With the acute doctor shortage here in Toronto, he has a heavier workload and that has changed him. Maybe our system is to blame, maybe if they paid him a little more money he wouldn't have to take on such a heavy workload. Maybe if there wasn't a quota on how many people can go to medical school we would have more doctors, and maybe if pigs could fly life would be good. I don't have a solution, I'm just one person without much power. All I can do is keep writing letters to our good Premier McGuinty and file the form letters full of platitudes he sends back to me. I've got a pretty good stack of them already.

Not only has my Doctor he aged, he has had some bouts of illness himself over the years. Because we have a long history I know he has successfully (I hope) battled prostate cancer. Just before my trip to Greece when I was meant to see him, he got sick again almost derailing his long awaited vacation to his homeland in East Africa. Today he was limping a little and definitely didn't look well.

The people we expect to take care of us are human beings, who also need someone to take care of them. I hope he has someone.

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Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Worrying About Pakistan

As we all spend sleepless night wondering if the Taliban will get hold of Pakistans nuclear weapons, or if India will allow it, have a look at this map.

These are terrorist events happening as we go about our day to day lives. Should we worry? I'm not, I've decided that I will live until I die and there isn't a dam thing I can about it...

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Friday, November 02, 2007

I'm Mad At My Doctor

If this hadn't been a 30 plus year relationship and if wasn't so difficult to find a new doctor, I think I would have fired him yesterday.

A couple of months ago when I received this surprise diagnosis of cardio arrhythmia and high blood pressure I was give pills to take. I won't mention the drugs but I'm told they are widely used and quite effective. Since then I have found out that they come with a host of side effects and are not that terribly effective for me at all.

When I was in Greece I decided that I simply couldn't tolerate one of the side effects, the depression. It was so bad that I was simply bursting into tears whenever anyone just looked at me the wrong way. Definitely doesn't make for a happy companion since Steve bore the brunt of my discontent.

When I returned I immediately made an appointment with my trusty doc and he changed my drugs. I mentioned to him that I came home with a cold and cough and knew that I couldn't take over the counter drugs, what should I do. Take some Tylenol, was his advice. I had also prior to going on holiday some pain in the region of my gallbladder and when I mentioned it to him he kind of brushed it off. He told me to try the new drugs and come back in a week.

Yesterday I went back and this time I had my list ready. He saw me pull out the paper, looked at me and said, "only two problems a visit, see my sign". Huh, sorry doc but the cold got worse, the cough is unbearable, I have a pain in my gut and the new drugs are even worse than the old one. That's three, sorry but that's life. I guess he expected me to make another appointment and come back. His reason, the government only pays him one fee per visit, he allows 15 minutes per visit and he can't effectively deal with more than two problems in a 15 minutes period, therefore he runs behind schedule and gets backed up. I didn't have an effective comeback, I just meekly said sorry, won't happen again.

He did book an ultra sound for the gut, agreed to try a week without blood pressure drugs admitted that now I had bronchitis and need antibiotics and agreed that the heart ablation surgery should happen sooner rather than later. I don't tolerate drugs, whenever side effects are listed I seem to get most of the worst ones. He hasn't a clue why my blood pressure was low for most of my life and just in the last few months it has gone up. Could it be stress from dealing with my Moms illness and death? I just don't know but I hope I figure it out...meanwhile I think I will give him another chance. Maybe he was just having a bad day and after all this relationship has lasted longer than most marriages, makes it kind of tough to break up...

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